Tuesday, December 23, 2008
This is Sarah's get up! She is little Santa. And the video is of Sarah from the beginning of the evening. She is with Uncle Stephen and dancing and singing to the song. You've got to watch the whole thing, because the end is the best. We ended the evening with the story from the scriptures of the Saviors birth. And I tried to start a food fight in the middle of that! I sat down next to the computer and my elbow bumped a plate someone had left there. It had spinach dip on it, and the dip went flying through the air and hit some guy in the face and on his pants and the floor! I say "some guy" because I really don't know who it was. He was an invitee of my uncles. We had a few of those there. He was a little offended I think and said something about hoping they didn't have to be dry cleaned. I was so embarassed, and pregnant remember, so I ended up having a short cry in the kitchen while they ended the evening. Ugh. What a night. I really enjoyed them more when I was a kid. Then all my cousins were there, and it was fun. Now, it's more like a sacrament meeting. Still good, but not so much fun. It doesn't help when you're chasing kiddos. And mine were the only kiddos there, too. So, it wasn't too fun for them. Ben told me he thought it was going to be everyone singing their favorite Christmas songs. I guess I hadn't explained it too well. He did get to sing "Christmas Bells" which is kind of his favorite this year. l
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Well, at this point Sarah was starting to cry - she was so cold. She kind of cry-whined all the way to the car and all the way home. As soon as we got her inside she wanted her boots and mittens off. Her fingers and toes were red and cold. I felt so bad.
Today, I got my own taste of what she must have felt. I'm sure I've been that cold before, but I'd kind of forgotten. Well, Kannon took the burb to Reno in an icy road condition. So, it was more than filthy. Since we're going to Grandma's tomorrow I thought it would be nice to have a clean car and we went by the car wash. Well, the one I usually go to was out of order. I didn't want to hand wash because it was cold and the burb is so big. We went to the next car wash, but I'd never been there and I wasn't sure they took credit cards - and once you're in you're in, there's no backing up. I knew I didn't have enough cash, so we went in search of another one. I knew there were other hand wash ones, but wasn't sure of an automatic. When I finally got to the next car wash and found no automatic, I figured we were out of luck and should just get it done. I hadn't brought a coat, just a jacket. I wasn't planning on getting out of the car! I also had shoes, but no socks on. As soon as we got out I started complaining to Ben that it was too cold. Well, half way through my fingers were so cold and hurt so bad, I was practically whimpering! I even left time on the wash because I didn't care to use it all, I just wanted to get warm. I told Ben it felt like someone had smashed all of my fingers and thumbs with a hammer. He also got a good discussion on frostbite and losing fingers and toes. But, obviously, my fingers are still working - I mean I am typing this!
One of my favorite parts of Samuel's prophecies was about the birth of the Son of God. He said it would happen in 5 years, and that a sign of the birth would be great lights in heaven. Also, that the night before his birth, there would be no darkness. That is would appear as day - we would see the rising and setting of the sun, but nevertheless the night would not be darkened. We were to know that this would be the night before he was born. He also said that a new star would arise, one we had never before beheld. I often spend some of my evening watching the stars, wondering where the new star will be, and if I will be able to tell it from the others.
Nephi has continued to baptize, prophesy, preach, cry repentance, show signs and wonders, even working miracles. That others would believe and know that the Christ must shortly come. I listen to him as often as I can get away. I want to remember these prophecies so that when they happen I can be a witness. Many have believed, but more have not. The wicked, who would not be softened to Samuel's words, tried to kill him. And more and more often, those of us who do believe, are persecuted by the nonbelievers. It is now the 92nd year. And in the last few years there have been great signs and wonders. The words of the prophets have begun to be fulfilled. Angels have appeared to wise men and declared glad tidings of great joy. But the nonbelievers have hardened their hearts and say, “Some things they may have guessed right, among so many; but behold, we know that all these great and marvelous works cannot come to pass, of which has been spoken.” They also say that IF there really was a Christ and he is the Son of God, then why not appear to us, why only Jerusalem? They call it a wicked tradition to believe in such things. My heart tells me I am right to believe. And because of my belief and that of the other believers, we are persecuted.
Something hard to believe has happened, though. Greater signs and greater miracles are happening among the people! It’s incredible to witness. But, this does not soften the hearts of the wicked. They say that the time is past and the words of Samuel are not fulfilled. They rejoice in these thoughts. I sometimes worry that this may be true, but I’ve still watched steadfastly for the day and the night and the day which should be as one day as if there were no night.
The nonbelievers said that tomorrow we would all be put to death if the sign did not come to pass. Our prayers have mingled with those of Nephi. He has been praying all day, and the word has finally come to us that this is the night! And that tomorrow the Savior will come into the world! I feel relief and then joy. It’s really going to happen! And now, instead of fearing my death on the morrow, I feel as though my life has just begun.
It is time now, for the setting of the sun. We would be preparing for bed soon, cleaning up from our evening meal. Instead, we sit and watch. The sun has set. And it is still light. Oh, how does one sleep on a night such as this!? A part of me feels like laughing - we were right! We believed the prophecies and they have come true! Others will surely believe us now. They know that the prophecies are coming true, now. Look, they fall to earth in astonishment. I’m grateful that I don’t feel astonished, that I had hope and now feel joy. I feel peace, also. This is the birth of the Savior! The Christ! The one who will save us from our sins! I feel in my heart that I’ve always known this truth. Always known he would come. I wonder, too, why now? Why do I get to witness this great event? Why not my mother? But then, maybe she is witnessing in her own way tonight.
It is as bright as noon-day. And now the sun rises. This is the day that the Savior will be born. No chores today, who could concentrate on them? Our lives have been spared in more ways than one, this day. And see the new star in the sky?! It is so much brighter than the rest, I could not miss it! Each time I see it I will be reminded of this glorious occasion.
And even though there are many spreading lies, trying to get us to disbelieve what we have seen and witnessed, we still believe. And many others have joined us. Nephi continues to teach us and there is peace in the land again. And peace in our hearts as we imagine that Savior child and the good he will do for us all.
K: You better get used to it. Cuz that’s what you’re going to do when you get older. Work for a car, work for a house, work for a wife. Cuz she’ll want to go to the store. She’ll want to go to the food store and the clothing store and the shoe store and the baby store….and the shoe store again. And she’ll want to go to the car dealership store. And she’ll want to go to the movies, with her friends and to time out and time out again and not time out. And she’ll want you to stay home with the kids. And it’s no fun at all.
B: You’re joking.
K: No. I’m not.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Anyway, I just wanted to say that this is Christmas. A celebration of Christ - our Savior. A time when giving gifts should remind us of the greatest gift of him.
On another note, the kids have loved singing "I love to see the Temple" lately. Sarah always picks it to sing during our scripture time. Here are the words:
I love to see the temple.
I'm going there someday
To feel the Holy Spirit,
To listen and to pray.
For the temple is a house of God,
A place of love and beauty.
I'll prepare myself while I am youn;
This is my sacred duty.
Sarah thinks the end is "shake your booty" not "sacred duty" and so she giggles each time we sing it. Kannon taught her the "shake your booty" thing a long time ago and she does it really well. This is a quick video of her dancing. But, not the best example. She didn't look too happy here.
I went slowly up the hill with Sarah's hand. I was afraid she'd fall down. We even saw some cacti and that would be bad to fall on! Ben was hurrying ahead of us. Finally, Kannon called to him to come back where we were. On his way down, fast, he fell and hit the same knee he'd scraped up a few days before. So, we quickly found a tree - and it was perfect for us.
(I love this picture of me!)
Last year we had to hike in crotch-deep snow, shake the snow off each tree - only to discover it wasn't good enough. Then we only had a hand saw to cut it down. I was so grateful for the convenience of this years event.
Kannon - carrying Sarah and the tree back down the mountain. I took the chain saw.
We had brought a nice little picnic with us, but we ate it around 10:30, on the drive, when we were all hungry. We still had some hot chocolate, though, so we drank that and warmed up a bit.
We were listening to Christmas songs on the radio. Here are Kannon's and Ben's reactions to the song "The 12 Pains of Christmas". There was a lot of laughter. It was a great time.
I'm not sure she said much, I just accidentally deleted the video I took of her here. But, she was there long enough to get her bag of goodies.
We hadn't cleaned up our dinner when we left for the Christmas tree lighting. Sarah attacked the hamburger buns. I gave her one - later she came in to me with this concoction in her hands. It took me awhile to figure out that she had taken all of the leftover buns (at least 4) and mashed them together. Then she would eat bites off of it. Of course, most of it ended up in the trash.
Just over a week ago we ventured out for the Christmas tree lighting. This was the 74th year and our towns 100th anniversary. I thought it would be all cool. Well, it was cold. We only live a few blocks away, so we walked.
Then we waited, while listening to the Jr. High choir, I guess. They weren't very good, and the speakers made it sound even worse. Lots of people around. Sarah walked in circles until her Dad picked her up - Ben took over the stroller.
I was so intent on getting a picture of Sarah as the tree was lit, that I forgot to take a picture of the tree afterwards.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
So, we started this post a long time ago - but Ben's been too Shy? I guess to finish it. He didn't know what to write - wanted me to. Anyway, these are some pictures he took one Sunday morning. He really likes taking pictures. Here's his self-portrait.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
We got up early (but late - the alarm didn't go off, and we were about 15 minutes late for meeting some of the fam - Sorry!) on Friday morning. My sister Susan came over to stay with the kids and bil Dave met us for the Walmart sales. Kind of stinks that that is all we have. But, there were a few sale items that we really wanted to get. I think we got lucky and found everything on our list, and stayed within our budget! Back home I went back to bed, Kannon went to Sears for a tool on sale. He ended up staying up with the kids and let me sleep in for quite awhile. He's been incredible lately. Really taking care of me. We spent at least half the day at my parents. Each day we had one less family. Janet and Levi had to leave Thursday evening. Nathan and Jackie left Friday morning. Nancy and Dave and kids were there until Sunday morning, and Susan and Stephen left on Sunday, too, I think.
On Saturday, Kannon offered to go to Winnemucca and help his bil, Clint, put in their wood stove. He offered to take the kids and I didn't complain! I had a lazy day - got laundry done and most of the Christmas stuff up. It seems like I have less each year. For one thing, I keep weeding out - getting rid of things that just don't thrill me. Also, we don't have a lot of space for putting stuff, so the minimum works. I did go out to my parent's house for pizza and a movie - we watched "Elf" but I fell asleep at the end. My family wasn't home until about 8:30 pm - dirty and tired - although the kids didn't go to sleep til almost 10!
On Sunday I sang with a group in my parents ward. About a month or so ago, the ward boundaries in our stake were reorganized. A good portion of our ward (3rd) moved to my parents ward (6th), and we got another good portion from the 4th ward. We had been practicing a song for Thanksgiving, but most of the 3rd ward singers were now in the 6th ward. Anyway, one of those sisters asked me if I would sing with that song with a group. So, I did - I ended up being the only one from the 3rd ward, which was kind of awkward - like people would wonder why I was there. They also added a few visitors, though, some of my friends I used to sing with in Jr. High and High School. I really loved singing with Annie again. We practiced the song together twice - she and her dad were the last ones to show up and everyone else was finished practicing. I didn't need the practice, but really just wanted to sing with her. She has an amazing voice - as do her whole family. I guess I should also let you know that right before the ward changes I was released from Young Women's and called as a Relief Society teacher. That calling makes me nervous. Not only do I feel inadequate to teach all of these sisters, but so many of them were my teachers as a child and youth! I've taught twice and had good responses both times. I'm looking forward to learning more and growing in a new place. It's been a long time since I had a Relief Society calling.
So, Kannon kind of got a short layoff. They had Thanksgiving and the day after off as normal. But they let him know that he wouldn't need to come in on Monday. Then the called Monday and said they wouldn't need him until Tuesday. AAAGGGHHH! What a time of year for that! So, he's been around all week. Like I said earlier, he's been taking really good care of me. He's been the dishes guy, which is normally my job, and really helping with the kids. He cleaned the backyard really good and is working on getting our freezer working again.
Over Thanksgiving I had a tooth that was really bothering me. Well, I didn't know that it was just one tooth. I haven't been to the dentist for a few years. It just was hard to do it - I have to go to Reno, and get someone to watch the kids, and it costs money even with insurance, and my teeth had been doing really well. I am so careful with my teeth. I brush twice a day, floss every day, and still have had problems throughout my life. I've been cursed to inherit that trait. The last times at the dentist he had told me to use a sensitive toothpaste for the sensitivity in my teeth. I also have receding gums and that doesn't help. So, off and on I would have some sensitivity and figure it was just that. Over Thanksgiving it was pretty bad and even some pressure when chewing. So, I called on Friday and scheduled an appointment. I went in on Tuesday morning - Kannon stayed home with the kids and I was looking forward to doing a little shopping/looking by myself. Well, first thing in to the office the dentist chews me out for not using my insurance and coming in every six months. Then they do the x-ray of the area, and the helper lady says, "oh boy, that's why." He comes in and curses - "Oh gosh!" Only not gosh. So, I'm thoroughly freaked out. He's mad. He shows me what happened. One of my fillings, an old one, was not done real well, and basically let in the germs that ate their way to my nerves, about half way through the tooth. So, all this time I'm thinking sensitivity, and it's a huge cavity. I had to have a root canal - well half of it anyway - I go back on Weds. for the rest of the job. He certainly did reprimand me, and I don't do well with that. I cried. That's what I do. Needless to say, I didn't feel much like playing afterward. But, I did what I needed to get done. The numbing was wearing off as I left Reno, and I was really hurting all the way home. My jaw was so sore, still is. I guess that could be from all the needling! The tooth hurts if I bite down on it, so I just eat on the other side and I'm okay. Well, you can bet I will be visiting the dentist regularly, as well as finding a dentist for the kids. Kannon has those non-problem teeth. He never flosses and never has cavities. Hopefully my kids inherited those and not mine!
Okay, so I know there's been a lot to read here. And no pictures, either. I just haven't been in the taking mood. I haven't been in much of a mood at all, lately. I finished reading all of Laura Ingalls Wilder's books over the last few weeks. Really made me think about the simplicity of her life - being so happy with so little. Not that they were without their struggles. I nearly cried as they lost crop after crop. Anyway, during "The Long Winter" she often said she felt so stupid, or that she couldn't think. As I thought about that I thought of the word stupor. That's how I've felt lately. For about a month or so. I think I know the reason, but there could be more to it, I guess. Anyway, I am pregnant! There's the big news. Probably why I haven't blogged lately. To me that was the only newsworthy item, that we weren't sharing, yet. We told our families at Thanksgiving. At my parents', we went around the table saying what we were thankful for. At Sarah's turn, I prompted her to say she was thankful that she was going to be a big sister. Everyone seemed very excited for us. Every Christmas I embroider the grandkids names on a Christmas sweatshirt for my mother-in-law. This year we added the due date 7-7-09 (although the doctor told me today it is 7-6-09). At first she wasn't sure who it belonged to. But she was pretty excited for us, also. We've been trying for so long. Sarah will just be turning 3, Ben 6. So, I guess ours come every 3 years. Anyway, I'm feeling so much sicker this time. I don't throw-up, just feel nauseous ALL DAY LONG! Even the prescription I was given didn't help. One good thing to come from that is that I've lost more weight. Down a total of 12 pounds since I started last summer! I don't do much of anything these days. I make sure the kids are fed, usually get dinner made, and do the laundry. I usually get a shower, too. Although there have been a few days where I was in pj's til the afternoon! I just don't feel like doing anything. We haven't even been going to the library, which resulted in quite a few books being overdue! That's not normal for me. I've been in this stupor. Kind of a fog. Not desire to do, not motivation, nothing. That's how I was all through Thanksgiving. I sat, and read, and sat. I feel so neglectful of my home and family. I am also extra cranky. That's how I was with my last pregnancy, too. Mostly I get that way in the afternoons. I'm trying really hard to stay in control.
So, I hope that those of you who've been wanting this for us, too, can rejoice with us. If you are struggling with getting pregnant or wanting a baby, I hope you will be able to rejoice with us soon. I know how hard it is to hear from someone that's expecting, when that is your greatest desire. I also know that the anger goes away eventually. We feel very blessed to have this opportunity, not always worthy, but definitely a blessing. We wish you those same blessings!
I guess that's kind of it for now. I'll really try to keep up a little more. We've got some fun Christmasy, family things planned for the next few days. I'll try to get excited about taking some pictures!